Re: loving labour

ShelliC@aol.com
Mon, 1 Apr 1996 16:13:04 -0500 

In a message dated 96-04-01 12:35:49 EST, nhorizon@iafrica.com (INA MORGAN)
writes:

>Folk, make me so mad, when they say "now you have your two little boys -
when
>are you going to have a girl", if they only knew how much it hurts that I
>cannot have another.

That is a difficult thing to have to ponder. I imagine a comeback is
difficult to. I always say "We'll have another when they figure out how to
impregnate men " ::giggle:: or "We'll have another when I lose the 70lbs I
gained during pregnancy" :) That gives me a long time to think about
another.. or an excuse not to.. :)

I can honestly say I didn't enjoy labor.. I kept saying "MAKE IT STOP!" :)
But I did love being pregnant.. Luckily my pregnancy was pretty uneventful
until the 2 weeks prior to Josh's premature delivery .. I was told I had
gestational diabetes..and controlled it by diet.  Never had bed rest or
anything BUT, I'd give anything if I could have! If it meant keeping my child
from being born early and being injured.

About a week before Josh was born, I was at home and went to the bathroom. I
heard a "kerplunk" and saw what I now know was the mucus plug. I called the
hosptial (it was late and being so silly I didn't want to disturb the doctor
-- I always felt like I was being made to feel stupid & trite when I'd call
about anything) The woman in L&D told me it probably wasn't the mucus plug
but to call my doctor the next day if I felt contractions or anything. Never
felt a thing til my membranes ruptured on a Friday night.  I always regret
the fact that I didn't call the doctor that night......... 

But you can't go back in time, unfortunately!

and re: visiting the NICU: we visit weekly! It puts my life in perspective to
see those tiny babies ... I remember how far we've come.. though it may not
seem that far at times.. seeing what used to be makes me really appreciate
the present and look forward to the future. I want to give hope to all those
worried mommies and daddies.. ::sigh::   Joshua gets therapy in the same
hospital where he was born.. and I send pictures to the nurses/doctors about
every 3 months because they became our friends. I still talk to the nurse who
helped deliver Joshua.. she's a saint.   I think it helps them to see that we
don't hold them responsible in some odd way for what "happened" to Joshua
while in their care.. they did their best and we know it. 

Enough from me... I'm glad that I joined this list.. however, it has made me
relive a lot of things that I try to forget. I don't know if its better to
put it behind me or to think about it.. ponder it. 

-- Shelli, mom of Joshua age 2 (born at 30 weeks gestation now diagnosed w/
spastic quad CP/PVL)
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