Repeat peemies
Cris Coffey (CCOFFEY@rugs.bry.indiana.edu)
Tue, 26 Mar 1996 13:44:31 EST5
I've only had one child, and he was only 4 weeks early, but I DID go
in to pre-term labor at 19 weeks and was bedridden for the next 16
weeks or so. There IS no explanation for my case--my cervix was not
weak, I had no infections to cause it. I can't help but feel that I
might have done something wrong to cause it. You know...maybe I
walked a little too much at the mall the day the trouble started.
Maybe I lifted a box that was just a tad too heavy. Anyone else feel
this type of self-blame?
The doctors are not sure of my chances of this happening again since
they don't know the cause. I have been warned that during my next
pregancy they will be watching me like a hawk, and that I will more
than likely end up on a home monitor twice daily--troubles or no
troubles--as a precautionary measure. It's enough to scare me in to
not having another child. Being in bed and totally helpless for 4
months is devistating and humiliating, not to mention causing a huge
financial strain. Is there anyone else out there who feels the way I
do?
I'm also terribly envious of pregnant women I see wandering around
the mall, grocery stores, work, etc. Don't get me wrong, I'm very
happy for them. I just feel that I missed out on the joys of
pregnancy because I was not even allowed to shower or care for myself
and was never able to be out and about. Am I horrible for being that
jealous of mothers with normal pregnancies?
Cris