Re: Preemie mom rooms

Tracy Peters (0005386491@mcimail.com)
Wed, 27 Mar 96 16:24 EST


Mary,

You said in your posting that you felt empty.  Yes.  My daughter was
born on a Friday am and I held it together pretty well until Saturday
night.  My husband and I had a conversation with one of the neonatologists
and I guess it just really hit us all of the things that could go wrong.

I had already lost one baby, I COULDN'T lose another.  I finally let
go of all of those emotions I had kept in check during the "let's delay
this labor and delivery" phase.  I cried.  So hard.  I was a mother
without a baby.  I had milk and no one to hold.  Tears come now, almost
3 years later, when I think of it.  I think I will always feel a bit
cheated.  I LIKED being pregnant.  So yes, I understand empty.

Tracy mother of Sara (25 weeks/15 oz)