Letter to Devin

Compustat Staff (nhorizon@iafrica.com)
Sat, 9 Mar 1996 06:52:04 +0200 (GMT+0200)


> 
> Hi everyone, I would like to share with you my letter to my son who 
> turned 2 today.
> 
> My darling boy,
> 
> I cannot believe that it is two years today that you were born.  I look 
> back over the last 24 months and memories come flooding in.  The shock 
> and despair I felt when my waters broke when I was 24 weeks pregnant with 
> you.  The trauma of lying at Groote Schuur where Third World standards 
> are applied.  The relief at returning to Vincent Pallotti hospital where 
> they treated us so wonderfully.  The day you were born at 26 weeks, I so 
> desparately wanted to be conscious for your birth in case you did not 
> survive - I wanted to at least see you but the epidural failed and they 
> had to give me a general.  The joy and relief when I heard that you had 
> survived the birth.  My shock and anguish when I saw you connected to all 
> those pipes and then the wait for the FIRST 72 HOURS which they said was 
> critical time.  The way you looked like a little old man, covered in 
> thick white hair all wrinkled and peeling - you were so ugly and yet so 
> beautiful.
> 
> My joy when you overcame all your setbacks and took ten steps back and 
> then three steps forward - at least you were going forward.  The great 
> day when you came home - 3 months after you were born.  My horror when 
> you collapsed the week after coming home and had to be resusciated and 
> re-admitted to N.I.C.U.
> 
> The joy and chaos you have brought us since then, your first steps and 
> words.  My darling you are a miracle - when I read what some of the other 
> preemies are going through, I thank you for fighting everything and 
> coming out of it so strong.  
> 
> You are the most courageous, brave, determined child I have ever come 
> across - you are going to go far in life because you let no-one and 
> nothing come between you and your goals.  I look into those big eyes of 
> yours that have always looked so old and wise and I know that you have 
> endured more in your two years than most people endure in a life-time but 
> you are always cheerful and show no fear.
> 
> I love you my baby - grow well and stay the fighter that you are.
> 
> "Little ones to him belong, they are weak but he is strong"
> 
> Love , Mommy.
> 
> Thank you all for your support, I wanted to share my feelings on this 
> anniversay of Devin's birth - he is a real character.  My thoughts and 
> prayers are with all of you that are going through the struggle.
> 
> Regards, Ina.
> 
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