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I couldn't even carry him/her full term; the least I could do is...

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Olga writes, "Call me crazy but let's hear you finish the sentence.  Maybe we can all share the guilt...It's kind of cleansing to put it to print.

I couldn't even carry him (her) full-term; the least I could do is...

--Breastfeed for a YEAR
--Not let him cry
--Cuddle him all day
--Buy him a car!
--Protect him from his BIG brother
--Throw him an outrageous birthday party
--Not work so I could spend the entire day with him
--Play with him and take him to all sorts of fun places   -- Olga

--Spend 5 weeks expressing 11 gallons of breastmilk for a baby who was too weak to nurse after coming home.
--Sleep upright in the recliner every night for a record breaking 6 month bout with colic.
--Help him to someday understand the death of his brother even though I still have trouble understanding some days.
--Be grateful that his "course" in the NICU was as uneventful as it was.
--Grin like a lunatic every time he uses his pouty face to manipulate me.
--Immediately give in to the pouty face.
--Teach him that his early start and disabilities make him as normal as every other kid on the block.
--Know in my heart that I have been the best kind of mommy he could have...his kind of mommy. --Gretchen, mom of Mason 32 weeker now almost 2 1/2, and angel Isaac

---Let her sleep with us on a full size bed.
---Carry her around in a Snuggli for as long as she wants me to.
---Pump milk for 12 weeks only to later discover she is allergic to milk.
---Fork over alot of cash for concentrate neutramigen--cuz' powder simply won't do.
---Dress her in better clothes then I have.
---keep a photo journal/scrapbook for EVERY milestone and then some.
---Never leave her alone.
---Thank God for my beautiful child at least once a day.
---If she is awake I will play/feed/change whatever even if it means that I get dinner cold and an hour late. --Melanie(mommy to Julianna 28 weeker-3lbs...now almost 2 months adj. and over 9lbs)

  -- CARRY HER TO 25 1/2 wks........ because at 18 weeks they told me they couldn't find a heartbeat & it appeared that I was having a spontaneous abortion following a hemorrhage which actually just landed me on "beauty bed rest" for over 7 weeks.
-- Let her father name her Angela - for she truly is our Angel.
-- Stay in practical isolation with her for the past year - especially following the holiday season 5wk hosp with RSV and all the vents, med addictions & transfusions.
-- Give up my 10+ year career with GM to provide all of my attention to all of her needs and help her with her development.
-- Volunteer as a Parent Support Person - for Parents of Preemies at "her" former residence (get me outta this isolette, NICU, mi 42297) - This way I can hopefully make a difference for other moms, dads & families of other preemie babies.
-- Promise to myself - that no matter what - I will not ever "make it a topic of conversation" later in life in front of her making her feel uncomfortable or different in any way from that of a full-term child.
-- Continue the motto: When the going gets tough, just get tougher ! ! !
-- Love her with all I've got to give......... -- Kristin - mom to Angela-just turned 1 yr 4/22/98; mom to Sarah-(FT)just turned 10

--Dress her like a fashion plate.
--Give her smelly soaps for her bath (thank goodness that she doesn't have sensitive skin).
--Fight with a breast pump for 4 months.
--Visit her almost every day in the hospital for over a year now.
--Fill her crib like a toy box.
--Rock her to sleep when all I want to do is play.
--Look into alternatives when the doc's say there aren't any.
--Hope and pray that she will get home one day.--Erika, Mom to Bailey 30 wkr born 3.20.97 still in the hospital

--Preserve their brother's memory for them...
--Make EVERY day of their life better than 14 1/2 weeks of lost womb-life ever could have been!...
--Love them unconditionally...
--Treasure the little things...
--Do every thing in my power to foster good health...
--LAUGH...and give up the guilt!-- Shelly

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