The Black Book with the Red Spine
Part Three
Pull up your Hat
Put in the claim for much more than needed
ambit claim
bollocks
try for 10 and need 5
why the charade
expected
everyone does it
but why do I have to fall in with this
cause if you don't you will lose out
no chance of that
so I put in 10 when I only need 5
sod em
give me ten you bastards
what a world we live in when you cannot ask for what you want
but
have to double it
double the number dead in the world and then see how we are
god forgive us
forgive yourself as I forgive me
pull up your hats
turn around and
look again.
Nowhere to Search
Nowhere to search
simply let go of knowledge
renounce ideas
clear away the false and
like clouds dissipating to leave a clear blue
sky
ignorance fades
to reveal the eternal
truth
ever
present
Always simply
is
what we are
simply be
simply be
simply be
simply be
sky
sky above
blue and clear
clear like truth
earth and tv
peace on earth
turn off the tv
lose the gold and dig
dig and be free
dig as far as can be
who am I
look within
renounce knowledge and
find out
closet
closet door shuts out the light
throw, throw, throw the rape
gently to the deer
look and speak with god
hello old chap
nice to meet myself
I
who am I
who am I
passive awareness
non-doing
nothingness
do nothing
listen to the mind
truth will appear
when the false
ignorance
ego
I
fades and disappears
illusion
the throw away the sutra as well caper
it too is false
leaves what is
what always will be
truth
eternal bliss and love.
Golf ball flying
the ball is struck
smash
it hits me on the head
awake
awake
to the truth
pitch or putt
that be the question
unconsciousness
walking to the tube
is more glorious than climbing Everest
in our present sleep-like state
bang
crash
let go
look within
eternal cosmic truth
exists as one
we are god
no
more and more thought
invades me
leave me alone
don't fight it
strengthens it
don't try and change it
use the mind to soften its hammer blows
using the mind only gives it power
it is the mind too
cunning
winning its way into you as the way to overcome
itself
no matter what
the mind cannot help
the mind is the enemy
don't listen to its soothing voice
look to yourself
has it helped
ever
no
forget it now
forget it
it cannot help
only strengthen itself against you
waking
waking to another day
no time
no today or tomorrow
no past or future
no present
totality only
being
as is
glorious and joyful
here and now
goal
the grass is green
the ball skids true
goal, goal, goal
the winner wheeling and strutting his stuff
eagles mob him
force him to the ground
cascade him with kisses
what joy
Falling
globules of lard fall on my bread
yum yum
stick it in my tum
what has happened to you
fall, aagh, I love your tooth
is it red
who the noggins are you?
Give us a brew
off to Miami
orlando and golf on the beach
swim
stuck with a six foot leach
falling again
oh no
Open Bodice
the opera star sings
drinks the juice of air
bodice busting bodily beyond
three together
take a course.
Job
Apply for a job
yes I can do that
superior interspersed communication skills
good in a team
able to manage my own time
bags of enthusiasm
full of initiative
self confident
just the person
load of old bollocks
give us a job pisshead brain.
DSS
in the queue
two miles long
next please
blah, blah, blah
number B22
wait over there
sit in a throng
days go by
still waiting
Interview
Hello
nice to meet you
coffee please
yes yes yes
sounds a great job
in the past I've done this
oh yes and that
of and this of course
thanks for coming
thanks for seeing me
go to the pub and neck some beer
drowning the doggy taste
of bullshit
Programming
C, C++, Visual C
Visual C++, Mindbending C+++ bollocks
Oh no
Mine is C-
ah well
guess programming is not for me
Blank Page
blank page
but wait
blank no more
some knobhead is filling it as I write
guess what
it is me
Spot on face
spot still on face
pick, pick, pick
living below my stubble
shaving
ow - bloody hell
get the bugger
give us a tissue
blood everywhere
now I'll never get rid of it
lets have a luck
smiling at me
give it some aftershave
Ahhhhhhh
Junk Leaflets
Into the box outside
day after day
solicitors, lawn mowing
buy this, buy that
how many trees have been
gobbled up to produce this rubbish
sill, seeing the old folks
trundling their trolleys
depositing this stuff
the walk down the path
to get this junk
all gaily coloured
warm and friendly
helps if postie sails by
with nowt down for pal.
Potty
sit on the wooden seat
reading
opposite a plastic potty
decorated with clowns
Templates
more to do and consider
always is
things we think of and do
don't do
no less a man than me or myself
sat upon the potty called gods throne
very hard
arse hurt like shit and had one too
more on this later as we return to the BBC
oh course old chap
not more queens English
speak proper man
none of this pronunciation rubbish
just so some old fart in Cheltenham can come
on the afternoon talk show to say
how great it is to hear the word pronounced properly
people think different things
draw them all together
how
does not matter anyway since we all are god.
Good look my brother
This is the end of what
who knows
the earth
my life
everyone of us
I speculate to accumulate
a load of old crap
can't take it with me
where am I going
no where
there is no where to go
no heaven or hell
both are here and now
no exit to the past or fast forward to the future
this is all there is boys
get used to it
nothing more or less
run your own business
be a movie star
climb Everest
whatever
or wash cars
clean the streets
all the same
doctor and garbo
no difference
don't elevate one above the other
there are only individuals
you and me
and we are god
we and nature
look to each other and bow down to god
bow down to yourself
we are the prophet
look within your own heart for the truth
it is there
always was and always will be for now and ever more
child no longer
grow and be aware
not free
nothing to be free from except our own ignorance of the
truth all around
kiss everyone and the trees
see them with no thought 'it is a tree'
no interference from the mind
always judging
evaluating
comparing with things past
anticipating the future
locking you out of your present and into the mind
It controls you
wondering
thinking
worrying
fearing
all the mind
to complete the picture it then presents itself as the solution
to all these thoughts, fears and worries
ones it alone is
tying you in knots
coming to depend on the mind for salvation from all these things
yet these things are the mind
looking to the mind to save you from the mind
like looking to the drug dealer to save you from drugs when
he feeds upon your need.
As does the mind but the mind is cleverer
making you unaware he is the dealer
wake up to him
turn away from him
nothing you can do
nothing you can desire
just watch and nothing
very hard as we want to act
to do something
to change something
but we can't
there is nothing to change
and any actions involves I doing it
this I being the mind
we want to act with no mind yet we cannot do it yet
so believe
recognise this and you are on your way
as we all are
good look my brother
good luck me.
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