Posted by Donna A - don't read if pg.... on August 09, 1998 at 01:11:39:
In Reply to: Re: Re: Does anyone feel this way? posted by Trudy H. on August 08, 1998 at 13:19:09:
Trudy
I couldn't have said it better myself.
ROSE;
I would love to have a boy, having one girl, but I think I have come to terms with the fact that this is the last baby - girl/boy, I will love either. The important fact is that I know I want one more baby (wishing aside). I also know that if there are complications with this pregnancy I will be done regardless of the outcome.
I have been thinking (way too much) that I am comfortable with my decision of no more babies, but still can't come to grips with a TL either. I am 32 (33 in one month) and started late in life having babies - this doesn't mean that I don't want more, but I know my limits (physically and emotionally).
I have also come to terms that this baby may or may not have such a rough start...or it could be worse, much worse than what we experienced before (relatively easy experience). I know that I could face a long hospital/bed stay and I have a three year old. I have also thought long and hard about the what ifs of a VERY early preemie if it comes to my health and the baby. I know this may sound caulous to some, but I have a need to do a worse case thing here...I know if it's a choice in late pg I would have to choose my health and life over the baby - and I won't tell my husband it's is call - I have made this call before I get pg this time. It will be me. I have a family that needs me and I want to be here for them - my daughter needs a mom and I want to be here for her. It's a hard thing to say and I'm crying as I write this, but it's something to think about...HELLP is a nasty thing and can kill you as well as your unborn child.
So, all wishing aside, those are the choices I have made in my life and hope that I am strong enough emotionally and physically to do this next pg. I'll do everything in my power to ensure that I am doing it all right....and we'll put the rest in His hands and go from there. I also know I can't go through this emotional upheaval again (even the emotional side of considering another pregnancy)...and have agreed to do TL only if I can't go VBAC this time....
So, yep, there's a point where I think we all feel this way - no matter what age.
Donna A, mom to Elizabeth, 34 wkr now 3 and ?? sometime soon.